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the punch drunk kid

i'm starting to lose faith in humanity.

my guy friends are starting to stray. most of them at least. i remember our talks about none of us getting addicted to any vices, how that we should stay the same and value our morals -- i guess that was all just a bunch of bullshit. god, some of 'em are even lying to our faces, vehemently denying doing anything bad. i just wish they'd stop. really, it's heartbreaking. only a few remain standing. i miss you guys. :( i won't drop any names but i know they know who they are. if those who are still in the right path stray too then i think the rope will snap and i shall be cynical for the rest of my life.

is this the price we all have to pay for growing up?

Labels: growing pains, life, perplexities

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA z-snap in your face. you'll forever be cynical, fiama girl. :>

By  ninjabetch, at December 11, 2010 at 12:35 AM  

HAHAHAHAHA SHUT UP BETCH. :))))))))))))))) LOL-ing so haaard. :))))

By  kimdelladuncan, at December 11, 2010 at 7:43 AM  

eatthishunneh

puffy eyes and a heavy heart -- heartbroken? no way i'm just too sick to function. my heart literally feels like it weighs a ton. i don't know why. wretched wretched allergies.

i haven't blogged in ages. phooey. i'm a horrid blogger :< i've been am sooooo busy. it's currently our hell month. english and filipino term papers are due this week i think and we are far from being finished! i also just had to rush a powerpoint presentation about the nervous system for our report in bio tomorrow. one of my groupmates just had to flake out on me. why now? i'm already sick and stressed as it is. apparently he can't send me a single freaking message earlier to tell me his lame reasons. let me share to you the exchange of messages:

giancarlo: Hi della, gian here. Ok lng b pnta ak t0m m0rning sa d0rm m para maaus ung part k0. Wla kc ak c0mp d2 e. Mga 9.30 am, ok nb un?
[whaaaaat the efff right? first of all, he sends me a message the night before our report? when i've finished doing the report? even his stinkin part! and pleaaaase, man. there are so many computer shops in the city. having no computer at home is no reason to not be able to send the file to me.]
della: Sana sinend mo nlng or pinasend sa iba. Ngnetshop k nlng sna. Ngwa ko na. Ngaun ka rn lng ngtxt late na eh.
giancarlo: Gnun b? Ok. Mr0n nrn ak n c0py. Ung part k b na tnype m ung nsa hand0ut?
della: yeah.
giancarlo: 0k. tnx tnx.
[wtffffff. not even a freakin apology? lame ass.]

moving on :> my urine is as clear as waterrrrr. too much info? mum was here during the weekend and she flushed me with cranberry juice and wilkins :)) i missed herrr :> too bad dad hates travelling >: can't wait for summer break. i miss olongaporn!

gotta get back to work. missed you, homies :>

Labels: break, college, comebackkid, diseases, gaporn, life, manila, perplexities, procrastination

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Doc! naughty you!issue ah between the future president.hmm. haha. anyway marami naman ata sya natulong e? hahaha gwa tyo thm a.

By  Anonymous, at March 11, 2009 at 11:41 PM  

gago ka marco! kala ko gian tlga. hahahahahahahaha. sige gawa tayo. :))

By  kimdelladuncan, at March 11, 2009 at 11:50 PM  

eatthishunneh

i tried to catch a falling star but all i caught was a cold. i'm sick sick sick once again. my nose feels like a faulty faucet: dripping one minute and clogged up the next. ugh. i'm in a dreadful mood.

i've decided not to sing at jojo's debut. i don't like people/crowds. i'd prolly just puke so to save myself from the anxiety attack, i just won't sing. i have also decided to buy a new notebook. i have a specific notebook in mind-- exactly like my previous journals. i miss writing. i haven't created anything in ages. i feel empty and that is just the cure. i think it's also about time to tell my blockmates that i'm going to shift. or maybe i'll put it off until before or after our final exams. i'm definitely not looking forward to that.

holy guacamole! i just remembered that my college life is in shambles right now! i think am sure that Pepe is onto me. he knoooooows. my secret isn't so secret anymore thanks to my oh so charming blockmates. thank you, guys. thank you for shouting "della/kim" on the top of your lungs whenever Pepe is around. thank you for spilling the beans. shitballs, right? oh whatever. touya's girlfriend is fugly. connection? haha.

two quizzes on monday; i will make myself study. how unlikely.

reruns: watched yes man. malling on different occassions. row with clyde. fixed. diseased. froze in the bus. olongaporn. take off tomorrow at three? or four?

Labels: college, diseases, flash, gaporn, life, perplexities

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uhugin. hahaha. jk ^_____^

makes you want to say "so. this is college" no? hehe
good luck with the Pepe guy! :))

By  Patricia, at February 9, 2009 at 7:25 PM  

tse! :)) kadiri ka tlga. hahaha :))

yeah. pepe is fugly though. hahaha. seriously. i don't know what i see in him. hahahaha.

By  kimdelladuncan, at February 10, 2009 at 9:39 AM  

oh well. love is blind diba.

By  Patricia, at February 16, 2009 at 12:39 PM  

this guy is so five minutes ago na :)))))

By  kimdelladuncan, at February 17, 2009 at 8:26 PM  

eatthishunneh

it's been such a long time. i guess some things will just never change. i'm pretty damn disturbed with this new discovery. i want to cry but that only shows weakness. ugh. and i had such a good day. geds and i went over to UT to pick up diane and km and off we went to watch Underworld 3 at SM snlzro. froi messaged me and told me he was there too. i thought he wasn't coming 'cause he wasn't replying to my messages but it turns out that his phone was playing tricks on him. haha. then tj came and picked up km. we went to starbucks then we rented some movies. we rode a jeep and we got lost. i was so damn scared because of the crazy people on the streets. i am dead afraid of crazy people. :)) i had fun though. :) we rode a taxi and we safely arrived at the UT. tj and km were already there. we watched the american version of shutter. diane looks a bit like megumi :)) then froi and geds brought me home. the end. pretty happy right? but ofcourse something bad had to happen. shitballs. goodbye. i'm off to feed iBob. plus i have to sleep early. the boys have a game tomorrow. they'll kill me if i don't show.

an after thought: i wish ust had some sort of oblation run.

Labels: friends, life, lost, perplexities, shitballs

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eatthishunneh

things have not been going so well for me. i think i flunked most of my preliminary tests; i have fallen off the wagon; i am broke; my mother is going to kill me when she gets here tomorrow because i fell off the wagon and because i'm broke; aaaaaaaaand i'm depressed as hell for no discernible reason.

shopping tomorrow. i hope all goes well. i'm tired of my life. don't ask why. tell me what i need to do. shtblls. i feel like the sad patty. T.T distract me.

Labels: life, perplexities

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man. i need to budget myself. try to make a list of your expenses. it helps :)

a little budgeting also allows for easier dieting. haha

By  Patricia, at January 27, 2009 at 4:40 PM  

i've noticed that it really does help. hahaha.

By  kimdelladuncan, at January 27, 2009 at 10:12 PM  

eatthishunneh

a few more minutes and it's christmas but still i can't really feel the spirit. grinch? not really. it's just that i'm not a "holiday" person. i don't get hyped just because someone says we're supposed to be happy on a certain bloody day. yet here i am fumbling on the keyboard just to greet you guys. MERRY EFFIN CHRISTMAS. there. atleast i got that out of the way.

this christmas is by far the least festive christmas i've had in my whole life. my parents are losing their christmas spirit too. might it be old age? or is it my fault? is it because i'm getting older? fat chance. maybe it's because of the crisis. hell, i have no clue. i used to get so many presents but now... uhh. not so much. :)) my dad gave me cash. hooray. but now i'm close to being broke. i have about 5k left. that's not much i tell you. i still have to buy gifts for my closest friends. maaaaan, it's tough growing up. the funny thing is, i still don't get treated like one. sht. i desperately need to prove to them that i can take care of myself. PLEASE LORD HELP ME WITH THIS.

because i'm young, broke, without direction and bitter about life -- i just might change my lifestyle. IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GROW UP. i won't even wait for new year for my resolutions. i'm going to start tomorrow. hopefully i won't be too lazy for that.

i'm infatuated with a certain number of people. i feel like such a loser. i really am infatuated. the butterflies in my stomach, the constant daydreams, the real dreams, the stupid smile plastered on my face -- the whole shebang. i need someone. :))

Labels: christmas, infatuation, life, maturity, money, perplexities

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Funny how I felt the same way this morning. :}} Anyway, Merry Christmas still. :]

By  Ayee, at December 25, 2008 at 9:44 PM  

hahaha. :) merry christmas to you too, ayee :)

By  kimdelladuncan, at December 26, 2008 at 8:42 PM  

eatthishunneh

it's high time that i should start feeling infinite again. stars will be as big and bright as i make them out to be and the moon will lose one of her daughters just for me to wish upon. it's maddening that i've been in such a rut these past few months. maybe my mind really is made up and maybe i shall be stubborn about this whole thing -- whatever the case is, i think i'm going to be happy. my soul is just so tired of this world that maybe i just want to burn and scream. if i do, maybe i'd be satisfied. what do you think? i need to find what brings me joy and go there. taft? katipunan? or here in espanya? this is sickeningly serious. help me decide. no, don't. i should decide for myself. this is my life and whether i sink or swim it should always stem from my perogative. life is making me such a fragile idiot. i need to escape. i think i'm going to catch up on mansfield park.

Labels: comebackkid, life, maturity, perplexities

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i desperately need a new book. or a new notebook. or maybe a new mind and a new set of fingers. i'm dissatisfied with the way things are going right now. my lungs are fighting hard to take in air: the cherry on top of everything. i can't wait to go home to gapo. i want to wake up and find the best country breakfast that my dad can make waiting at the table. i miss the suckiness of olongapo and the crispness of sbma. i shall promise to take and post pictures while i am back home. oh yeah, some random dude caught my eye today. he's not really good looking but i like him. haha. there. i'm not so superficial after all.

everyone deserves the flames but it's such a shame

Labels: life, perplexities, seretide

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i knwo what you mean moy. my online exam's done! i have to tell you what happened last night! hahahaha

By  Anonymous, at November 15, 2008 at 4:59 PM  

marie and her boy stories :D hahahahahaha.

By  kimdelladuncan, at November 15, 2008 at 8:45 PM  

eatthishunneh

first day of the second semester -- uneventful.
i've got the mother of all headaches. shitballs. i want to break something. it hurts that bad. i'm woozy. i think after posting this i'll go to bed and force myself to sleep. i'm horribly confused about what i want to become. i don't know if i should still shift or not. i'm currently studying HRM, hotel and restaurant management, and i'm thinking about shifting to Medical Technology. But if i shift next year, i'll be an irregular student. That's unthinkable. I'll have to catch up on ten units of chemistry and three units each of zoology and botany. who knows what other units i still have to take up. i want to be successful but i feel like such a failure. i'm going all emobitch again. it's terrible. i need something or someone to take my mind off things for a while. or maybe i just need a vacation. i hope my dad gives a thumbs up on the hongkong trip. if not then i'm screwed.

Labels: life, perplexities, shitballs

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eatthishunneh

so there's this boy. nvm. je meurs pour vous embrasser, mon milo. what am i saying. fvck.

Labels: comebackkid, life, milo, perplexities

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eatthishunneh

i am currently planning the perfect crime. i'm about to kidnap our aussie neighbor's kid. he's just so damn adorable :| i want a little brother. if my parents won't give me one, i guess i'll set things in motion on my own. :|

i want to move. barretto is so boring. the whole compound is nice tho, but still, barretto is too dead for me. let's see if i can persuade my dad.

dr. duncan. dr. della. dr. kim. none of them fit. shitballs. do i really want to shift? maybe i do. i don't know. this is messed up. i'm too young to be in college :| won't you save me before the day is done? i might just become a dermatologist HAHA would you trust me with your face and skin? ugh. my dad wants me to figure out what i want to become. right now. *insert steady flow of profanities* i'm not READY yet. wth, everything is going to be okay in the end. i am not going all emo bitch on you [:

Labels: college, life, perplexities, shift

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ah quit being such a drama queen bitch! dr. duncan fits perfectly! feeling ko bored ka lang kaya ka nagkakaganyan. go and play witcha aussie neighbor and idk, hunt crocs or something.

By  Anonymous, at October 25, 2008 at 10:44 PM  

ngayon ko lang napansin tong comment na to. hahaha. wtvr della. LOL. i miss you moy!

By  kimdelladuncan, at November 18, 2008 at 9:37 AM  

eatthishunneh

ohgod. i am unwell. i spent the day filling trash bins with tissue boxes and soda cans. i would never have survived without the jakes. if the world had no music, i'd have committed suicide by now. i am unwell and i lack peace of mind. why oh why can't it be bought in stores? shitballs. i got drenched in the rain today. i'm too weak to handle the rain. pathetic. i took airbourne, neozep and used my inhaler. i still feel like shit. and now that i'm done with Heroes, i don't know how to spend my day. i've been photobucket diving the last few hours and i'm bored as hell. marie em clarisse isn't online yet, ugh, can't wait for her news. lmao.

after posting this blog, imma edit my profile. here and on friendster. i hope that takes my mind off things for a while. oh and i'm currently discovering the freakiness of hotel 626. thanks mick. LOL. oh and somebody's being weird today. ano ba talaga ha? fuck naman.

Labels: diseases, music, perplexities

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who's being weird? spill bitch! magaling ka na? eto oh huuuuuuuuuuug. hahahahahaha

By  Anonymous, at October 25, 2008 at 10:46 PM  

sino pa ba? hahahaha. T.T

By  kimdelladuncan, at November 6, 2008 at 11:45 PM  

eatthishunneh

i'm off to manila tomorrow with boil. my mum and the maid is tagging along because my mum wants to go to baclaran but all in all i'm free to do whatever i please. boil and i will have lunch with miggy. i hope he treats us. hahahaha. it's his birthday today! happy birthday, butaw! love you! XD

i've been chowing down fudge sticks all day. and since i don't drink water, gatorade is the next best thing. ROFL. i only drink the blue, red and purple ones though. the others taste like crap.

i found out about something recently and it's breaking my heart. i feel so bad because i think it's my fault. i'm so sorry this has to be the result of all my actions. now i know i have to make the best decisions because they're going to affect every aspect of my life. i have to start growing up.

so far my sembreak has been a mix of sharp turns. i'm still waiting for the bruises to heal and waiting for the adrenaline to boil down. and uhh did i say that i'm on the dean's list? well. there ya go. i am. hahaha. SCOREEEE!

Labels: birthday, food, friends, maturity, perplexities

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eatthishunneh

it takes severe issues to make me write again, so it seems. (i first typed in "right" instead of "write". how ironic.) i haven't felt this low in such a long time. i feel sick. this just isn't right.

i finished downloading most of ATDI's songs. they're helping me right now. marie and i need to talk. she's the only one who knows what i'm going through. aw crud. this is wrong.

i think i have a small case of bipolar disorder. why doesn't that surprise me? i'm hiding because this is all too twisted for the normal person. unthinkable and unacceptable.

Labels: perplexities

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hell yeah bitch we need to talk.

By  Anonymous, at October 18, 2008 at 6:01 PM  

afk, moy? i buzzed na.

By  kimdelladuncan, at October 18, 2008 at 6:46 PM  

eatthishunneh

ohmygod. i am the unluckiest person on the entire planet. i think i just failed pe class. i tried to answer the online exam but the eleap wouldn't let me. it kept insisting that i've already taken that wretched exam when in fact i haven't. i had to go to a computer shop to try and take the test again. what a fucking futile attempt that was. SHITBALLS :(( i want to fucking SCREAAAAAAAAAAAM. i'm going to see my professor and beg for another chance or else i'll get a fucking grade of 5. i am a lot of things but i'm not a fucking failure, i'm miss excellent for crying out loud! i am conceited, damn you. ugh. i want to cry. this really can't happen to me. not now. please God help me. :(( stupid stupid pe class. stupid eleap. stupid lying assesment button. fuck. ijustwantoburnshitdown.

Labels: college, perplexities, shitballs, tests

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eatthishunneh

things always get out of hand.
my mom visited me here in Manila this morning and as luck would have it, she left here hating my guts. it's not my fault, really. usually it is but not this time. ugh, i wish i could sit by the river of españa and weep. i bet you didn't see that coming. i'm not allowed to go home (olongapo) because of my feud with mum. my dad is my only ally.

i scavenged pictures from our interview/trip earlier today. i guess i'll just make a simple collage and post it here with my next entry.

there was a concert or whatever at UST today. Boil and I didn't hang around long enough to see what was happening. We're both ill at the moment and we need to rest. we shared straws and I think i caught this from her. Real friends share diseases.

rj called me about four times today. i was able to answer two of them. he's just checking up on me. haha. i miss you, slut. yes we are the raddest bestfriends even if we seem to be indifferent at times :P

i wish my hair would grow faster. it's like watching grass grow. :|

emoy is watching Zohan, thought you should know. Haha. And there's this super hot student in our building. Conservatory of Music. ooh and i'm talking to rj atm. that's all for now. au revoir.

Labels: diseases, perplexities

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